I’ve had people tell me I’m crazy before…to my face…but I just shrug it off. I’m ok, i say, I’m used to it. I keep telling myself that I’m just training for teaching… I have two jobs and work about 70 hours a week(one full-time, one part-time), and I’m taking my ECMP class…I’m busy, but I’m used to it. This is how I like life…fast paced, busy, changing, challenging and interactive. Which is why my mom says i will make a perfect middle-years teacher….our attention spans are about the same…However, I’m starting to wonder how well I’m going to do when I am teaching. Teaching, must like my life now, is ever changing, with people pulling you from all sides, each expecting your best. I just finished reading an article entitled ‘Teacher Burnout’ By Tanuja Surpuriya and Mark Jordan, and could relate to some of the things talked about, although at the same time, I was hoping and praying that I would not be one of the teachers who got discouraged enough to end my teaching career.
One comment in particular that I could really relate to was ‘today he feels somewhat dispirited by student and parent apathy ‘ . I have two seperate experiences to speak to. The first one was during my pre-internship, where by October, nearly half the students in the school had letters sent home about 10 or more absenses. What was this about? Well, who could really blame them. Being brought up in a school system where you could not fail until Grade 10, no matter how much content you actually knew, or how many tests, assignments or grades you failed, you still got passed along. Now for the teachers, this was very frustrating. Planning any sort of yearly plan was difficult, because it often took twice as long to get through any of the content due to lack of attendance, lack of effort or lack of previous knowledge. If teachers worked hard to try to relate to their students, to provide individualized programs or lessons, often times, they either got sick of trying, or they burned out. There was a lack of interest from the students towards their education(many saw the lack of relativity to their own lives), and a lack of support from parents at home. My second experience of burnout related to student and parent activity, was during my time of tutoring a Grade 6 student whom has ADHD. He had been moved around from school to school, could read at a much lower level then he should have been, his spelling, writing and mathematics were as well, and the biggest problem??? His lack of caring. He had been passed on, and let go, he learned, if he complained enough, or put up a fight. He blamed his teachers for not helping him enough, and his mother complained that the school teachers didn’t know enough about ADHD and weren’t willing to learn. However, when I would show up my Sundays, Mondays or Wednesdays…did he have his homework with him? Not usually. Would he have practiced the things we went over in the time we had together, and that I had asked his mother to work with him on? Nope. Did he seem to care about his marks at all..?? Not that I could see. No matter how I tried to get inside his head, or make the work relative to his interests(making up math questions using basketball , practicing reading skater magazines, etc.), nothing seemed to get through. I knew he liked me well enough, but that didn’t seem to be enough. So, as a teacher, simply getting through to your students can be difficult enough. I know that it was very discouraging to me, and the interactions with him were often more draining then preparing the work itself.
Within teaching, there are many challenges both with the teaching content(learning and teaching it), and with the interactions of the staff, community, administration, parents and students. There is much to be expected of you, and much that you may be expecting of yourself. However, I have begun to see that you simply can not please everyone including yourself. It simply is not possible. However, you can do your best, in a human-ly possible way, and still remain happy and satisfied with your job…because I don’t believe that(for me anyways) there could be a more satisfying job. As for the system of education itself…well, one day soon, I hope it will be able to be more flexible in able to adapt to so many of the students who no longer work well within the public systems boundaries. I would like to be part of this change. But first I have to learn to work within it, so as I will know better how it should change. So, in a last comment towards burning out, as two very wise people once(ok, a few times…)said….stay fit, and have fun!!